May 2013
19 posts
“There is suffering, dukkha. Dukkha should be understood. Dukkha has been...”
– Buddha - The Four Noble Truths
I just wanna be
tan and swole like I use to be when I played tennis all the time.
guess I’ve just gotta start playing all the time again this summer.
whatevs.
I want to listen to this song on repeat
laying...
“I was within and without. Simultaneously enchanted and repelled by the...”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
LITERALLY
so bad at logic games.
got 4 out of 25 questions right.
WHY GOD WHY
Summertime Sadness
everyone in my family keeps asking me if I’m going through an Existential Crisis.
I’m beginning to think the answer is yes.
I have one more year to be young and stupid and then its done. its real world. whether that be law school or corporate america
either way its done.
I hate permanents. I hate committing to one thing or path forever. I hate feeling like my life is almost over.
...
just found out
people eat peanut butter to put on weight.
oh shit. what have i been doing
considering
dyeing my hair blonde
am I having an early-twenties crisis?
it’s creeping it’s way through my windows,
...
about to
fuck shit up on this practice LSAT.
like bam. also, if anyone sneakily downloads music. I can’t find kangaroo court - Capital Cities
or Don’t Swallow the Cap - The National anywhere… help a sista outttt
Then you’ll be stoned in some park, just...
“I firmly believe in small gestures: pay for their coffee, hold the door for...”
– Jonathan Carroll (via middlenameconfused)
April 2013
20 posts
“Eventually, your pride will kick in. And you’ll stop chasing it.”
– Clark Carroll
so tired
of my roommates bitching me out for stupid shit.
sorry I already did the dishes
sorry I’m not going to scrub the microwave when you dont even clean the stove and leave meat out for days
sorry i didnt sit at a restaurant with you for 4 hours to watch you drink after you told me I was going to have to DD for you and was no longer invited to participate in the drinking specials (aka the...
garden state
may or may not be about to watch garden state at 2:30 this morning.
because its the only thing I can relate to right now.
where have I been and why did this horrible feeling finally hit me now
I drink good coffee every morning Comes from a...
tomorrow
will definitely be a test of who i am
or at least of what I want to be instead of who I’ve become. I’ve never been like this until this semester.
I’ve always been quiet. studious. never going out. constantly studying. feeling stressed. I reiterate the studying because it was such a huge component of what i did. Last semester was so bad it had gotten to the point where I felt...
just had
the first nose bleed of my life.
post from last night validated, taking better care of myself starting to-freaking-day.
ughhh so light headed
Giving up
Giving up everything that is make me a less awake and focused person.
including alcohol.
including people.
This is not who I am. this is not who I want to be.
I’ve had my fill of partying and im done for a while.
give me lucid security.
take away the distractions.
focus. focus. focus.
remember law school. remember getting a 4.0 this semester.
dont fuck it all up because you...
“I want to make a ray of sunshine and never leave home
No amount of coffee, no...”
– The Weepies | Gotta Have You
“I want to die trusting in the Mystery, trusting that as it was good to live, so...”
– Paul Knitter| Without Buddha I could not be a Christian
“The song you sing
gives me vertigo”
– Vertigo | Anya Marina
I'm terrified
of failure.
of not doing what I need to on the LSAT.
of letting people down with my thesis,
which is somehow getting published.
I just want to be great at everything all the time.
but I’m distracted. and unmotivated. and free.
and i love it.
“Gold teeth and a curse for this town were all in my mouth.
Only, i don’t...”
– New Slang | The Shins
March 2013
6 posts
just make it
stop.
broke up with brent, got a ticket for running a red light, and found out an old friend died in a matter of 24 hours.
just make it stop.
You’ve gone too long without sleep I know...
“Living is easy with eyes closed;
misunderstanding all you see”
– Strawberry Fields Forever | The Beatles
all this talk
of the future
is weird.
lsat?
law school?
didnt i just start undergrad?
im pretty sure im deflecting. i’m acting like im fifteen again.
not worrying about real life
or the future.
just having fun.
and its the happiest ive been in years.
“Untie me, I’ve said no vows
The train is getting way too loud
I gotta...”
– A Call to Apathy | The Shins
“You may tire of me
as our December sun is setting
because I’m not who I...”
– Brothers on a Hotel Bed | Death Cab for Cutie
February 2013
7 posts
The First Noble Truth
Dukkha suggests a basic dissatisfaction pervading all forms of life, due to the fact that all forms of life are impermanent and constantly changing. Dukkha indicates a lack of satisfaction, a sense that things never measure up to our expectations or standards.
The emphasis on dukkha is not intended to be pessimistic, but rather to identify the nature of dukkha, in order that dukkha things may be...
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“You will be hearing but never understanding;
you will be ever seeing but never...”
– Matthew 13:14-15
We are a people of calloused hearts.
Shake
I wish I could shake this sad feeling I’ve had the past few days.
Its just when you think things are finally okay and that the worst is over
something else happens.
all bad things can just stop happening. now. thanks.
If I ever feel better Remind me to spend some...
“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible...”
– Albert Camus 