and there’s almost nothing that you could tell me that would..
ease my mind.
I know I’ve been using a lot of Jack Johnson on here lately, but he has some good points.
Life can be incredibly overwhelming at times..
But, today as I was walking to class the air was brisk and the sun was bright and my ipod was blaring. I just felt like, regardless of all the test anxiety and distance from my family, somehow everything was okay. It was truly almost an epiphanic moment. It’s so rare to find peace in whirlwind of anxiety, and I feel it is worth treasuring. When the sun isn’t blinding you but simply teasing your eyes, when the crisp wind revitalizes you instead of knocking you down, and when Jack Johnson lyrics inspire your otherwise weary mind.. It deserves a moment of reflection. In this simple moment, you have found a calm in the chaotic storm your of life
Sometimes I wish I could go in a dramatically different direction with my life. I’m sure it’s just me trying hold on to the fragments of my juvenile years but sometimes I just fantasize about making videos of all the random clips that create themselves in my head. Change my style completely and live a life of personal discovery. This would be ideal especially because there are no written exams when on the journey of self-discovery. I would travel the world and live in ways that I never have before. Be cold and maybe a little hungry trying to make my way with only my mind and my heart in New York. Living in a little loft with warm hot chocolate and blank pages to scribble on. No worries.
However, these are unrealistic dreams and I have 5 midterms to study for.