Christmas music for the first time since last year and literally felt nauseous. I wasn’t expecting it. It’s barely November.
The bottom of my stomach just fell out when I heard it.
Christmas use to be my favorite holiday.
Until every person that I’ve loved who has died, died in December.
I’ve been running away from last December all year.
But now here it comes.
With all the memories
And shitty feelings
I just wish I could turn the feeling off.
And float through the rest of this year.