March 23, 2013 • SoundCloud / thisisnotscene

You’ve gone too long without sleep
I know you won’t rest stressed
So give up, just give up

And don’t say no to pills
Ativan won’t kill

You said, “My life’s like a bad movie”
And I said, “It’s true of all us”

You said, and you said, “I gotta wake up so fucking early”
And I said, “Maybe the director’s turned on us”

Outside the five sounds like the ocean
Relax, don’t keep your eyes open

Don’t look at the clock
Your brain will never stop

You said, “My life’s like a bad movie”
And I said, “It’s true of all us”

You said, and you said, “I gotta wake up so fucking early”
And I said, “Maybe the director’s turned on us”

Don’t say no to pills
Ativan won’t kill

March 13, 2013
Living is easy with eyes closed;
misunderstanding all you see
Strawberry Fields Forever | The Beatles
March 13, 2013

all this talk

of the future

is weird.

lsat?

law school?

didnt i just start undergrad?

im pretty sure im deflecting. i’m acting like im fifteen again.

not worrying about real life

or the future.

just having fun.

and its the happiest ive been in years.

March 8, 2013

Untie me, I’ve said no vows
The train is getting way too loud
I gotta leave here my girl
Get on with my lonely life
Just leave the ring on the rail
For the wheels to nullify

——

I find a fatal flaw
In the logic of love
And go out of my head
You love a sinking stone
That’ll never elope
So get used to the lonesome
Girl, you must atone some
Don’t leave me no phone number there

A Call to Apathy | The Shins
March 7, 2013
You may tire of me
as our December sun is setting
because I’m not who I used to be
Brothers on a Hotel Bed | Death Cab for Cutie
February 26, 2013

The First Noble Truth

Dukkha suggests a basic dissatisfaction pervading all forms of life, due to the fact that all forms of life are impermanent and constantly changing. Dukkha indicates a lack of satisfaction, a sense that things never measure up to our expectations or standards.

The emphasis on dukkha is not intended to be pessimistic, but rather to identify the nature of dukkha, in order that dukkha things may be overcome. The Buddha acknowledged that there is both happiness and sorrow in the world, but he taught that even when we have some kind of happiness, it is not permanent; it is subject to change. And due to this unstable, impermanent nature of all things, everything we experience is said to have the quality of dukkha or dissatisfaction. Therefore unless we can gain insight into that truth, and understand what is really able to give us happiness, and what is unable to provide happiness, the experience of dissatisfaction will persist

I’ve never found a word to describe my anxiety, sorrow, and fixation on the finite before reading about dukkha.


Now just to find my path to happiness.

February 26, 2013
You will be hearing but never understanding;
you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.
For this people’s heart has become calloused;
they hardly hear with their ears,
and they have closed their eyes.
Otherwise they might see with their eyes,
hear with their ears,
understand with their hearts and turn,
and I would heal them.

Matthew 13:14-15

We are a people of calloused hearts.

February 23, 2013

Shake

I wish I could shake this sad feeling I’ve had the past few days.

Its just when you think things are finally okay and that the worst is over

something else happens.

all bad things can just stop happening. now. thanks.

February 23, 2013 • SoundCloud / lnus

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it’s all over I’ll let you know

February 22, 2013
In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.
Albert Camus